MESS

Remodeling this house has been this huge mess from day one. Don't get me wrong I'm glad and excited to make changes but the mess that keeps happening, especially after I finally get things cleaned up is driving me crazy. The first project was painting and that was crazy trying to make all the cut ins on a wall that really was built with sharp corners, then it was the flooring in the great room, which is the living room and dining room. Which took forever because after preparing for vinyl which is a process we found that it was a scary thing to do in there since it was lifting?? Finally before we found something else we had a water explosion from the hot water connector to the washer machine. The builder never put it together right. Anyway after getting all the water damage done and I mean damage!!! We finally were ready to put the laminate in to wake up and find our ice maker exploded on us and we had water again. Laughing at this point right yeah me too! So finally we got all the flooring in and it was a miracle. Next was the computer/ media room which thank God went well except the fact the the brick faux painting wasn't what we thought. So we ended up painting it a haze color light brown and the bathroom the brick color. Oh and did I mention that we had to replace the flooring in my walk in closet and Bedroom hallway from the water damage as well? What's left? Well the flooring in the boys room and our room the laundry room and two bathrooms and painting in those rooms.... Wow we still have a lot! and with that more messes.

Pictures.... GREAT

So Yesterday Andrew had a accident he ran into a big kid and got up from the fall and before he cold realize where is was heading he ran into a planter and fell directly on his chin! It is so skinned up and guess what this morning is Picture make up day. On top of falling he got really bad allergies and so the top lip and nose are so RED, how all these things seem to happen right around pictures is beyond me. The first set of pictures were so cute until you noticed the big wet spot on his shirt, that I guess the picture people thought would go unnoticed?? Anyway so I guess I'm paying for the 6.00 retouch fee that I should have just done in the first place. We live and learn.

My Baby is growing up!!!!

Ok so Oct 4th was my little Noah Bear's 4th birthday. I asked God can you just make him stay like this forever?? My babies are growing up and I can't make them stay little. :( Noah has grown so much and his personality is one of his own. LOL. A little of my husband and a little of me, mix that up and you get one GIANT little attitude! He is the laughter and excitement of our lives and I am truely blessed by God to be borrowing him. Thank's God.

A Gift From God

It's amazing the thing's God give's us. One of my gift's is this little boy Andrew. Andrew is my joy, my encouragement, my tester lol, my hope, and my example. I know some of you may think I'm crazy with what I am about to write but I know it to be true with all my heart. Andrew was born with the gift of Cerebral Palsy, yes I said the gift. I say gift because his struggle's has been all of our and his Blessing's in life to be learned. Please don't get me wrong my greatest hope and prayer is for him to be healed and in time God's time he will either here or later. As for now he is the world's example of great joy in a time of struggle, there is not one day that go's by doe's he ever complain. Andrew has a smile about 90% of the day on his face. Boy has he been through it to, with surgeries, therapy, eye issues, botox injection's, seizures, and bracing. He never once complained, he has blessed so many people and I've noticed the smiles and laugh's he's brought to people and the love they gain just by knowing him. Sometime's what the world think's of tragedies can be the world's greatest blessing's.

The start of something new.

It's funny how sometimes the person you are or becoming is the person you think you want to be, until you read something that hit's you hard. I've been reading the book called crazy love and it's been a book of reflection, let me tell you. Most of my life I've been this person I wasn't always happy with and since I have been a Christian I felt that the old me was behind me. Well think again, after reading this book I realized I was only a few baby steps away from being the old me. Every chapter I kept realizing WOW! What have I changed except for some stuff you change anyway as you become a parent and with age I guess lol. God has blessed my life soooooo much and what have I really given him in return??? After reading Chan's book nothing I guess :( The very last chapter says in the end hurry up close this book get on your knees and pray and in chapters before he tell's us that the way we should be praying is with the whole glorious image of God in our minds like we find in John or Revelations. He also says to not just jump right into your want's either to just give glory to God. So I put the book down and what do I do I start listing my want's, don't get me wrong there not things like a car or money. I ask for healing and guidance, but I stopped myself in the middle of my prayer and I just asked God to forgive me for not giving him that glory for just being God and for blessing my life. I have to admit I laughed during that prayer at myself and about how I am just like a kid. I just read the chapter and just like a child I had already forgotten to be in that moment of glorifying God, the one thing in my life that has always been completely promising. I guess I can't get to mad at my kids now!! I keep asking God how long will it be before I am the person I long to be as a true lover of Christ? Why is it so hard to just wash away all the junk that corrodes my life. Is it just me or doe's anybody else just want to kick themselves in the behind when you've done something for the hundredth time?? I stop myself dead in my tracks sometimes and just want to slap myself. Then I get mad and tell the enemy nope I'm not going to finish or that I am acknowledging the sin right there in that moment and fessing up to my inconsistency. I do love the book though it's a book I shall read over and over because it's a book to help remind me of the person I strive and long to be. The Lord truly reaches through the pages and pull's on you.